Sandy, I'm so sorry! I hope you have lots of friends and family to surround you with love and comfort right now. There's nothing else to say.
I feel bad sitting here about to make a post about what's going on here. When something so devastating happens in your life, it feels like the world should stop turning right along with you. But it doesn't. Life goes on even when it seems yours will not. Eventually you see that it's the very thing that will keep you going.
I'm leaving this post to stand on its own. I'll make my regular post a separate one today.