I'm going to tell y'all what's been going on and the main reason I haven't been keeping up here as much as I usually do. Quite frankly, I've been too embarassed to tell anyone (except my husband) about yet another medical woe. I feel like all I do is complain about one thing or another hurting me, and I think everybody thinks I'm a hypochondriac and making stuff up for attention or something. I SWEAR I'M NOT. I promise you, the last thing I want is another surgery, but what am I supposed to do?
So here it is all laid out...
I've either screwed up the cervical fusion I had last December, or the disk just above that one has now herniated. It's been causing me considerable discomfort. The disk above the one I just had fixed was slightly herniated in the MRI pictures back in December, but now I fear it has herniated even more and is pressing on my spinal nerve causing pain in my left shoulder and left-upper neck. The pain is in a different location than it was at the end of last year so that's why I feel like it's probably a different disk than before.
I just started a round of steroids yesterday to see if it will help calm things down a little. I also got some pain meds this time so hopefully they will help things too. Last time I didn't want or need pain meds because I just didn't have that much pain. It was more annoying than anything. This time the pain is what I consider severe. It's all my brain will let me focus on.
I do have some good news...my throat is not spasming or hurting at all since the injections last week. My voice is just a whisper, but that doesn't matter to me one bit as long as it doesn't hurt. I'll whisper the rest of my life if I have to! I think it's more annoying to other people than it is me.
Okay, whatever. So there you go. That's what's happening. And I feel like a big ol' loser for having another medical issue I'm whining about. I'm embarassed. I'm worried. I'm scared.
There's no need to comment. I know who loves me, and I'm not looking for sympathy over this. I'm just looking to get it down on paper, so to speak, and out of my head.